To tell or not to tell, that is the question

With my surgery date quickly approaching I find myself wondering. Do I or don't I, tell? Its one thing to put a blog up on the internet for the world (of strangers) to view it; it's another to tell your family and friends that your weight has become such an issue for you that you are resorting to surgery to do something about it. It reminds me of back in the day when online dating first started and if you said I met my boyfriend online people would think you were nuts or something. It kind of feels like there is a stigma with telling people I'm having weight loss surgery. Maybe it's all in my head, but I haven't fully come to terms yet with advertising to those closest to me what is going on.

That being said I have given a small group of people the direct link to this blog. With those people I feel most comfortable sharing the journey I'm about to embark on. And some I have said nothing. For example, my boyfriends mom is totally in the loop with everything and has even to help with getting me to and from the hospital. My boyfriend's dad, however, is on a very strict need to know basis. He knows I've got surgery, but has no clue what for. It's not a gender thing, but rather a comfort thing. It took nearly 7 months for me to tell my boyfriend's mom that I was having this surgery in the first place. So these conversations aren't coming easy for me.

I suppose it's that I feel maybe they will look down on me or think poorly of me for doing this. Like perhaps a small part of me is actually ashamed of what I'm doing. I suppose it's because I'm going the surgery route rather than doing the Biggest Loser or something. Hahaha.

So now I find myself thinking…should I tell people, and if so when? My original game plan was to wait and see how well the surgery worked, and if people said "Wow you look great, what have you been doing?!....Have you lost weight?!" Then I could come forward and say I had the surgery. Hehe.

-FXA